Mari

There’s pigeon steps and rain on the roof just above

Where Mary has gone to lie down

The air is heavy, it hangs on her chest

Maybe there’s a storm coming to calm Mary’s life down

She gets a call from her grandfather just below

He calls her to come and see him soon

There’s a few things he’d like to say to her

And it seems the right time this afternoon.

But she doesn’t respond right away as she stops dead

What if there is something I never should have said

Or he puts me in a place I never want to be

Trapped in conversation for eternity

But she goes down and every step is like a slope

Down futher until she reaches his room

A long way from anything she would have hoped

What will he say this afternoon?

Now there’s some things you’ll never find out about me he says

Like people I used to know and the way I used to dress

But these are things that don’t matter now

And as such they don’t need to be addressed

But there’s a dark hole I’ve put some things in

A room 101 for actions I regret

But I’d like to talk about them now

Like to talk so that I can forget

Now you never knew you Grandmother, neither did I

I met her for one month and then passed by

And your Mother left me with you twenty years ago

I hoped you’d never meet her, it’d just be you and I,

But you have to know there’s bigger things that you

Forces in the world you can’t control

You can try and overcome them, or let them beat you down

Either way you’ll never know

And I’ve been a liar, I’ve been a cheat and a fraud

I’d have sold anything to make a few pounds more

But there’s only so far down you can go

Only so far down before you hit the floor

So run with yourself, Mary, live through the pain

You’ll find out you can be yourself again

Those like you have so much to find

Don’t regret, just don’t give yourself time.